...im nothing...

i cant concentrated ,
i cant meditated ,
i cant medicated my self ,
i need a peacefull moment ...
in a silent place...
my mind go faster, my head is rolling down..
and in my dreams i cant see u..i cant feel u..i ask my self why?what the fuck up!...my head answer with no words..and my stomach hurts...kills my self completly...need more words to answer...and more answers for my words...
words are maybe in silence..in a secret place above my head
no spoken